I have always loved you..

I was waiting for the doors to open for my assembly, and I opened my computer and I started reading those emails that I sent her, like 30 or more maybe, over the course of our relationship. And not just short messages, I'm talking about long, involved love letters. Like desperately trying to be romantic and poetic, whatever and embarrassing as it is, it was also the kind of the best stuff I've ever written. Because it had this naive idealism thing going on where ours is going to be one of the greatest love stories ever told, and I'm writing it. So I was sitting and reading those emails and there's some turbulence, and I started to have this massive panic attack, like nothing I've ever had, and I think it's happening because I can never imagine feeling that way about anybody else, probably ever again.